Thursday, December 24, 2015

Just soo you knowww

Helloo, it's meee 

Just soo you know I'm not perfect
And you are not perfect
Because truthfully no one is perfect
Even if there is someone perfect
Are they just faking their perfectness 
Or do they even exist ?!

Just soo you know I'm FAT
because I have a large tummy 
because I'm obese 
because my jeans are size 36
totally not because dem bitches told me so

Just soo you know I'm a liar
Even if it is a small or big lie
I lied pretty much every week
Maybe it was for fun
Maybe it was for someone's good sake

Maybe justt maybe 
The ME inside of myself
Is a liar beast
Maybe yes
Maybe no
No one knows

Tuesday, December 22, 2015

Speech Competition Part 2


 SOO like I stated in my previous previous previous blog.. I will tell you if I won the speech competition or not. In fact, I won first place (not sure if I'm using the correct grammar hahh) and I was chosen  to represent our college for the intercollege speech competition. The guy who was 1st runner up was competing in it too bc each college must have 2 representer in the speech competition. Not just us, there are others students who represent our college for different segment too such as scrabble and spelling bee. And that made us 6 persons alongside with our two companion teachers. 

  The competition was held at kv kudat which was 2-3 hours trip from our school. We went there by our college's bus on friday after school.. which was a very new experience for me. I've never went to a school trip before except for my primary 6 school trip. Not sure if that was a school trip or not but for IT WAS hahh.. Soo desperate of me to go for a freakingg scholl trip yeahh.. 

  Besides us, there were 6 other KVs (kv kudat, kv keningau, kv sandakan, kv tawau, kv labuan, kv beaufort and us--kv likas) who participated in the intercollege competition. It was basically like an english day competition. Btw if you don't know what is KV, I will tell what it is. KV is a shortform for Kolej Vokasional. Please remember that. Haha. Andd to be exact, it was a three days one night trip andddd we were sleeping at their(kv kudat) hostel. Their hostel was very different from our hostel, but still it was very comfortable and thanks God I had a very goooodd night sleep for the two nights. 
anddd even snoring like a giant pig. Hahahahahaha.. 

** I will update this later on, my mood is going away bc my favourite korean drama is on the TV now.. Hehehehe ta-ta! 

Written with love,
Octavia (23/12/2015)

49/50 for my KPP01 test !

  To be really honest I am still very happy with myself up till now, and the fact that I can't sleep because I am sooo that happy! 

  So yesterday (22/12/15) I took my ujian komputer jpj which is basically the first test that you need to pass in order to get a driving license. A day before that, I must say that my mind was very tensed and I was very nervous because I was afraid I will fail TT My preparation for the test was reading the book half heartedly hehe and do the question again and again and again. I actually downloaded an app on my phone (kpptest 2015) so I am more familiar with the questions. And to be really really honest, I only started to practice a day before my test. A bad example yeahh, don't follow that haha! 
You should start revising right away after you attended your 6 hours ceramah. 

  A tip to pass the kpp01 test is very simple! You just need to do the questions again and again and again and again until you are 100% perfect. REMEMBER! Practice makes perfect!! And another tip I can give is to really understand what you've read, don't just simply memorize it ! Most important of all, it is best if you think logically first then choose your answer. I must say that you're gonna be really nervous on the day of your test. Who doesnt right?! For me, it was literally the same with taking my finals. I'm pretty sure we all want to pass it at one go and nobody want to retest it. So just like the saying "no pain no gain", you should really make some effort for you to pass the test bruhh. 

And last but not least, don't forget to pray for the best and have faith in God. I wish you for the best of luck too! YOU CAN DO IT! 

Written with love,
Octavia (23/12/2015)

Sunday, October 25, 2015


helo helo,

tonight is just soo 
and make me wanna grab the keys, drive  a car and go for a night drive.
but unfortunately I dont have a license yet.
urgh such a sad life of mine.

and what did actually happened?

I just had a fight with my mom.
over a cup of tea. 
small matter got big!

so it went like this, my sister told me that my mom told me to go and have a little chitchat with her at the dining table. so i did. but before that, i went to the toilet first and of course to pee. and then, my mom told me to make her a cup of guara tea(one of her favourite tea). so i did. i made one tea for myself too. i made both of the teas hot and proceeded them to the dining table. my mom complained that her glass was not what she usually use so told me to go and change it. so i did. after that, when i was about to put it on the table, i spilled it and abit of hot water had a contact with my mom's leg. she was mad at me right after that and that made me didnt want to say sorry to her. what a rude child you must say. but i must say i wasnt able to control my hormones at that very moment. 

and soo thats what had happened.

and my tea was left on the dining table. possibly waiting for it to evaporate. i was soo mad that i went straight to my room.
and now letting my anger out on you.

 thanks, i guess i'm fine now..
  gotta go and say sorry to my beloved mom yeahh. wish me luck!

thanks for hearing me out! you are the best!! 

yours truly,
Octavia J. (25/10/2015)

Saturday, August 15, 2015

Procastinate // Procastinator

helo helo,

now i have literally nine minutes to spare before move my butt and go complete my assignments!

like seriously the due dates are this week! 
and some of my assignments are 0% process. i am sirius lee dead meat.

gosh! i am only typing up till here and now three minutes has passed just like that.. 

just why people like to procastinate? 
why? and why? and earthly why important things most likely to be not fun to do while unimportant things are more like wayy more enjoying. why do we need to live in this kind of life? 

suddenly this came across my mind "nothing good comes easy" and ahh yeah that is really true like very to the merry berry true. if good things come easy, then where is the colour of life? where is the challenges? where is the fun of life? right? 

sometimes i have the thought that do successful people even procastinate in their life? like what is their daily routine? do they like slacking off like me too? and if they do procastinate, why are they soo successful? shouldnt they be just like me. haha funny 

oh gosh my times up. 

i should end this here then.

will be continuing this later or never.


written with love,
Octavia (11/8/15)


helo helo,

omegee finally! I am going to travel again! my last travel was like three years ago and it was a band trip to taiwan. 

this time, i am going to indonesia! just like how it was stated in the title above. i am obviously very excited for it! my trip will be on 27/8/15 until 1/9/15, and yeahh i will be skipping some school days but yeahh again life wasnt meant to be live in one place only and again yeahh bc it was meant to be ups and downs in our life. and this trip is basically an ups in my life.
as for the  conscequences that i need to face later on thats the downs.

my goals for this trip is to capture as many pictures and making as many memories i can while i am there! this is a rare oppurtunity so i will definitely cherish it with all of my heart! hopefully the journey will be smooth and enjoyable and yes of course fun and memorable!  

apart from that, i am planning to record urm might as well say it as a documentary video and perhaps i will upload it to youtube. what do you think of it? yes or nah?

and last but not least, hopefully we will have a safe journey go and back from indonesia bc this is suppose to be a happy trip and not a saddening one. lets be positive and hope for the best of the best. 

written with love,

Saturday, August 8, 2015

Speech Competition

helo helo,

this is actually last few days story and yet I feel the urge to share it with you! 

this week is my college's english week and being the english language lover myself I decided to participate in the public speaking competition. plus this is my last year competent to be participating things like this so I think whyy not! 

my speech title was 'MUSIC'. I was pretty confident choosing that topic and it only takes me roughly two days to memorize the whole text. and that made me more confident in winning the competition. 

on the competition day, luckily I wasnt late for school instead I was extra early like whutt// my mom told me to do my best later on my speech and she even stated that she was telling me to do my best not just a simple good luck. and typically I just smiled and thanked my mom. 

at school, I keep memorizing my text from time to time and make myself extra busy. most of my classmates didnt know if I am participating in it or maybe they just dont even care about me. aww sad! I remembered only one friend of mine wish me luck on that day. still I know I am well prepared and it is my time to shine. 

the competition started after lunch and it was held at our school's library. there was nine of us and I was the second one to go up and shine. I am really unlucky at picking numbers so yeahh. the feeling of my heart want to jump out of my body is still in my head. time flies soo fast and little did I know I have finished presenting my speech. unfortunately I didnt remember if the other contestants applaud me or not. yes i do spot little things like that. I am really a person who loves to be encourage by others when making things that I love. 

after presenting our prepared speech, it was time for the impromptu. our title given was "things that makes me happy". I did extra bad, I acknowledge that MYSELF. we were given four minutes to think and that was not even enough for me to finish writing my first sentence. I really suck at impromptu aka thinking fast! 

the other contestants keep telling me I did great and told me I am getting first. but the result isnt out yet soo it is not confirmed. but seriously for me, I do think I am the winner. well confidence! 

the results will be up soon, hopefully I am the winner. 

just want to state here that I will update on my winning here. 

if I didnt win, thats okay. I will update that too.

now now, lets be patient and hope for the best! 

written with love,
Octavia. (8/8/2015)

Tuesday, July 21, 2015


helo helo, 

hari ni sya mau buat blog pasal a day in my life dlm bahasa sabah sbab mo try juga ba blogging mcm ni.. bukan selalu tauu! 

tadi pagi sya bangun pukul 9am, biasala bangun lmbt time cuti sbab kalo time sekola jgn hrp la bole mcm ni. paling lambat pun kli pukul 5.10am mesti bangun suda. peluang itu jgn disia-siakan. lepas bangun apa kmu buat? berus gigi cuci muka breakfast? saya bukan.. sya mesti mulakan hari dengan check fon dulu.. online online online online online sampai puas.. tadi pukul 10:30am bru sya bertenaga betul, itu pun sbab mami sya suruh p breakfast. kalo tidak.. smpai tengahari tidak keluar bilik. 

lepas berus gigi cuci muka, sya breakfast dengan mami. sebenarnya mau mkn depan tv sbab ada rancangan korea syok d kbs world channel 392 haha! tapi mami paksa PAKSA sya kawan dia breakfast, sya sayang mami kan.. anak yang baik.. jadi sya kawan mami breakfast ler. maciam dua jam tau kami breakfast sbab bnyk kami cerita. biasala.. anak beranak banyak benda mo kena bincang. kami cerita pasal bnyk benda, cerita dulu pun kena kasi kenang balik. tapi syok la bab mami sya kann.. 

ni la breakfast sya tadi pagi, teh c sma tau sa piang! sedap tapi tida bikin kenyang. cute kan gelas baymax saya? thank you sbab puji! 

tengahari pukul 1 lebih tadi, uncle sya ambil kami. uncle sya ni bole kira driver mami sya. kenapa? bab mami sya mls driving jadi suru adik dia/uncle sya jadi driver dia. jan jeles arr.. nnti sya besar pun mau maciam tu la. itu pun kalo ada adik-adik sya yang sudi la. semua pun sibuk kerja sendiri ja. okay tutup cerita. uncle sya ambil kami bab mo ambil adik sya di tuisyen. adik sya hbis tuisyen jam 3.30pm. sya ikut dorg bab ada urusan mo pi pejabat pos mo hantar surat sma beli setem. 

time dlm kereta suda, mami sya syor kmi p mkn lunch dulu sbab dia blang dia pening suda lama tida mkn. jadi kami p la restoran 818 di situ donggongon. kalo org penampang kamu tau kali tu kan di mana 818? halfway kami makan, hujan lebat turun. bukan calang-calang tau hujan dia.. kuat lagi tu angin.. sampai skrg(4:42pm) tau hujan dia, blum lagi hbis-ii. harap tidak melarat la bab takut nnti banjir.! 

nampak ka tu hujan? sampai tu pokok-ii pun bergoyang-goyang dumang. 

ni la lunch kami. mcm dinner pula haha. biasala orang cukup khasiat. jan jeles.

sedapp.. ! 

minuman feveret sya, teh c ping! sma panda kesayangan. 

ini orang sanggup buat apa ja demi untuk minum minuman sejuk sya, termasuklah buat muka paling bida haha! dia order milo suam tapi kena bagi milo panas, na itula ni jadinya.

ganjaran buat muka bida. 

lepas makan lunch, kami p ambil adik sya dri tuisyen. punya gembira dia time sya ambil dia, ada dia buat muka teruja tapi sya lupa ambil gambar. sayangg. lepas tu masa untuk urusan sya pula, uncle sya singgah di pos office donggongon. sya mo hantar barang customer bukan surat ba sebenarnya sama beli setem.

terbang baik-baik yer dan selamat sampai dlm tangan tuan baru kau. 

dlm pos office. dua ja kaunter buka ni ari. tapi biasanya mmg dua ja pun. 

no. giliran saya. tidak sampai pantat sya panas, kena layan suda. okla tu kanzz

hasil pembelian setem ni ari yg harga rm1 sma rm2. cantik setem baru harga rm1. p la beli kalo minat. jan jeles. 

sebenarnya sya minat dlm penpalling(kawan pena).. baru juga sya mula ni tahun. belum lagi banyak surat sya terima. baru dlm lima keping maciamtu.. siapa minat? bole berguru dgn sya. jgn segan nnti menyesal. 

akhirnya hujan berhenti suda skrg(5:02pm). sya di rumah suda ni.. mau p mandi la, babauu badan suda. 


  It has been like three years I didnt update my blog, and that is a good thing actually because that means I am doing great with reality and didnt have the time to spend online and deal with unrealistic stuff. So if you are reading this, thank you soo much because I dont really expect someone to read this other than my future self. Yes I write this because I know things that I post online will stay undeleted even when you delete it. Just like the saying people change but memories dont. 

  For the past few years, many things have changed. Whether it is good or bad, things changed how it should be. I make mistakes and I learn from it. But as far as I know, I am such a word believer. Thats actually a bad habit and I am trying to change it little by little. And why should I change it? Because a word believer is someone who tend to do what people want to see and not what they really want to do and by that I mean I am a person who really tend to stop doing things that I love if a person criticize me for doing it. I get doomed and lose hope quick and easily! I really hope that I can change that habit of mine to something better because you know your life was meant to be yours only. If you dont make story for your life, someone will make you to help them making their story even better! Even though helping people is a good thing but you need to be good to yourself too. "Love yourself before loving others" 

  And another reason for being word believer is somehow you gets bullied unphysically by someone. You follow everything they say because there is a feeling inside of you that afraid if you dont do the thing the person will be mad at you, leaving you behind and etc. Their words are like threathens to make your life miserable. Oh how should i say this? Well basically you want to follow their words because you think they are your friends and willing to do anything to be with them. Even when little things happen like when they told the style that you are wearing is outdated and should be like them wearing thing which is popular. You should be happy and comfortable with who you are. Like who do hell cares if you look crappy when you are happy! if they care, let them be. You are you, and them are them. 

  Words shouldnt be an affector to what life you want to be in.